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Saturday, October 24th, 2009
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| Time: | 6:58 pm. |
| Mood: |  calm. |
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well heres something new. im doing alrite today. not 2 shabby. i even got a nap. woohoo. ya baby! I hung out with my dad today. he bought kobie another gamecube for his dads house. and me a playstation 2! eeee! ive got a good daddy. im still pretty tired. but i think it will be better tonight. dad also gave me money to get my prescription refilled. thank goodness cuz i have no idea where my head is lately. enikans first birthday party is 2morow. im really excited about that!
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Friday, October 23rd, 2009
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son of a bitch. anything else? shit i shouldnt ask that cuz you know something else is gonna happen. l;isahfd gskluywc
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Monday, October 19th, 2009
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done done done done done done done done done done done done done done
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Wednesday, October 14th, 2009
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im tired. im sad. im angry. im hurt. damnit i just want to be happy. people tell me that the only person that can make me truly happy is myself. and i agree. but some people ruin my happiness. one person in particular. i wanna be done with it. ive tried and tried for many years now and im not having any luck. i try to stay away but then he comes here. i tell him to leave me alone and he becomes more persistant. then the second i react in a positive way hes gone. i know its just a power trip. im not completely stupid. but i keep falling for it. im irratated with myself. grrrrrr
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| Time: | 7:27 am. |
| Mood: |  drained. |
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its been almost two years since i wrote in this thing. wow. I kinda miss doing this. My life is extremely hectic. Im having a hard time figuring out what to do with myself. Im going to school and will be done in august but now i want to be an instructor so im gonna have to do school again. then i wanna go to special effects school. good lord im going to be in debt to my ears. oh well at least i will have a carreer when this is all over. I miss my friends.....
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Saturday, September 17th, 2005
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you know its amazing how many times one person can kill your heart. Im so tired. its also amazing how you can trust a person and they end up talking. I give up. I dont want any friends anymore. I dont want to take the time and the effort. I just end up getting hurt. Talk is such a hurtfull thing anymore. It brings nothing but pain. so im done
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Friday, September 16th, 2005
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| Time: | 2:23 pm. |
| Mood: | lonely. |
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Dont know what to do.
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Thursday, September 15th, 2005
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| Time: | 5:22 pm. |
| Mood: |  curious. |
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Ken picked Kobie up at 5. He had a girl with him. I think its his girlfriend. Im really glad he is dating again. But im wondering if that is why he is going nuts.....
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| Time: | 1:35 pm. |
| Mood: |  aggravated. |
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I am sooooo tired today. I got barely any sleep last night because of the Ken ordeal. I just want it to be the way it was. But i know that will never happen. I wish I could say that I hate Ken but I cant because he gave me my Kobie. I wonder if he can say the same thing. Doubt it. He seems to hate me more and more as time goes by. When we first broke up people were amazed at how good we got along but now we are the typical broken up parents. He even said that he has proof that I go out to the bar and spend the child support on drinking. I dont. Even if i did that doesn't matter cuz I pay all of Kobies bills. I feed him cloth him bath him, take him to the doctor. I dont know what he is trying to prove by doing this. Doesn't he know that this is going to be harder on Kobie. The only reason Ken and I decided that he should pick him up every day is because Kobie wants to see his daddy everyday. I would rather Ken not pick him up during the week cuz I have stuff to do and I have to wait for Ken to come pick Kobie up before I can go. I never know when he is coming over. It could be 3 or 6 or whatever. Its very inconvenient for me to wait. I would rather just take Kobie along with me. It seems to me that ken is thinking Kobie is inconvenient. He doesn't want to see him everyday. I don't know. I cant seem to talk to Ken without him blowing up and yelling. All I know is im sick of it and if he only wants him every other weekend thats fine with me.
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Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
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| Time: | 6:53 pm. |
| Mood: | sad. |
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Kobie's daddy just said he was going to take me to court. Just because I pointed out that he doesn't pay child support and doesn't see Kobie that much anymore. He said he has already talked to a lawyer and the lawyer told him he shouldn't have to pay cuz he has Kobie as much as I do. What a lie. He only wants Kobie every other weekend it seems like. interesting, most parents go to court to get more time with their kids but not ken. In the past two months he has only had him maybe two weeks. I dont know where this is coming from. Maybe he got a girlfriend and she doesn't want Kobie around as much. It really sucks cuz I love ken for giving me Kobie but it seems that Ken hates me for the same reason. I think Im gonna tell Ken that maybe he should just come every other weekend. That will save on the arguing. But its only gonna hurt Kobie in the long run. I dont know what to do.
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| Time: | 1:21 pm. |
| Mood: | bored. |
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Well today was just another day of boredom. it is only 130 tho. my hair smells sooooo good from the stuff they put in my hair at the spa. I want to get some but im sure its like a hundred bucks. Anyways, im pretty tired cuz Kobie wasnt in the mood to sleep last night and since im living with my mom we have to share a room. I REALLY want my own place but I think im kinda screwed on that at the moment. my mom wants me to move into a trailer cuz its the easist to get into but I wont be able to afford the electricity. so im gonna try and find a apartment somewhere. Hopefully soon.
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Tuesday, September 13th, 2005
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Ok I have the best boss ever. Im a housekeeper and for the most part its a sucky job. But now I get paid very well for what I do. And today that wonderfull woman took us to a spa for three hours and paid us for it. I went in a suana, got a facial, got my legs and feet massaged and also my back shoulders arms and hands. Wow what a amazing boss to do that. I feel really lucky to be working at this place. I needed this so bad. I dont think I will be able to thank her enough.
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Monday, September 12th, 2005
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| Time: | 6:00 pm. |
| Mood: | pissed off. |
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still dont have a home. maybe soon but my baby's daddy isn't paying child support so im having to use my saved money for other stuff so my savings is getting pretty low. guess im actually gonna have to go for child support now. I really didn't want to do that. I was thinking he would always pay. that is my bad. hope he still wants to see his son after I do this. I really have no idea how he is going to react. He knows that he could never get full custody so Im not afraid of him taking K. But he could really make trouble for himself if he tries. Oh well I guess its his choice.
miss you steen
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Tuesday, September 6th, 2005
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wanna go to a new home. get paid tomorrow so hopefully
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Tuesday, August 30th, 2005
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blah do de. I need to find a home soon! my mom is driving me nuts
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Sunday, February 6th, 2005
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ah the day of superbowl. hmmm. i hate this day. It wouldn't be so bad if people didn't become so insane with football frenzie. Oh well. It seems to make some people happy. Well I live on my own now. Me and my miniman.
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Wednesday, January 19th, 2005
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| Time: | 1:52 pm. |
| Mood: | annoyed. |
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i am really tired and i dont want to go to work. I waited up for my babys daddy to come home so I could go and see my friend but i fell asleep b4 he got home and now i wont see my friend till Sunday. That is rather irratating. GRRRR! Anyhooters gotta go to work and be amazingly bored.
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Friday, January 7th, 2005
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The guy I am seeing is uncircumcised and I dont know how to give him a hand job without hurting him. If anyone could give me pointers I would appreciate it!!!
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Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
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Im sitting here on someones bed and decided to open one of these up. I have actually never read any of the entries and truthfully didn't think i would ever have one but things happen.
My checks got stolen out of my car last night so i had to go close a account that i have had forever. It rather sucks but I guess it happens. At least I opened up a savings account for my 2 year old while i was there closing my account.
I got my nipples pierced the other day for the second time that was fun!! It sucks that its so cold tho ive been hurting pretty bad. I took them out the first time so I could breast feed but i couldnt anyway because my milk never came in. Oh well to tell the truth I like getting pierced so to do it again was a thrill. Its weird because the person who pierced me was a guy I used to go to school with.
My wonderful friend who is sitting on the floor is being rather funny without her knowing it. She is folding laundry and complaing about it. She hates doing laundry. But she has to do it because she has a huge pile that needs to be folded and noone else will do it. Her complaining is funny cause its almost a thought to herself that she is saying outloud.
My son is being a poop rite now. he has a awful habit of slaming doors. He isn't throwing a fit he just knows to shut doors and somehow he got into the habit of slaming. oh well im sure he will grow out of it soon.
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